A letter to myself; Mom of a Type 1

That has to suck.”

The phrase I recall making in my head while grabbing my to-go order at Starbucks just a few weeks ago. A young lady in the sitting area had a small black pouch out with equipment to take her blood sugar before indulging in what looked like a creamy cold brew of goodness and a yummy danish with a girlfriend.

Now I sit in a small, cold room with a ED physician learning about that very test and insulin, while we wait for our son to be admitted for 48 care and education.

Today we head home but as I see my son in a hospital bed and watch him prick and poke himself my heart hurts. This DOES suck.

To get through this week, I wrote a letter to myself. To keep me going, to keep hope. To find peace. Hopefully others will too.

Dear mama,

This is the beginning of a new chapter in your life. One that will bring you many learning curves you will adapt and overcome. It won’t be easy. You’ll have moments of frustration, headache, and some heartache as you and your little adapt.

You’ll watch your little one take on big responsibility that others their age won’t ever experience. This will bring you thoughts that really suck, where you feel angry, alone and isolated. Don’t hide, don’t shutdown, and don’t give in to those thoughts.

Now we organize and plan a bit more before meal time and prep a bit longer before bed time. This doesn’t define your kiddo, you or your family. Don’t forget this.

You’ll become a pro at this new mom title. Though it brings some uncertainties and fears. It also brings peace and moments of hope. Let’s turn the page and continue to write this chapter. It will be filled with new adventures.

Here is to you mom! May you always know the badass you are and the support you have in the darkest of times.

See your way through the chaos🖤

Today, we don’t have all the answers or the perfect plan. Heck I’m still learning and adapting myself. Making carb count cheat sheets, 1TD kits, and peeping for a 504 plan.

To those curious how to help someone or a family with a recent Type 1 diagnosis, give us patience. We need time to adjust and process the next steps ourselves. We need you and we want to teach you, it will just take us time to be confident and comfortable with teaching others and answering questions.

What a week!

Xoxo, – T

Published by tashawnasapp

Hello! Welcome to all the C words. I’m TaShawna! A almost 30 working wife & mom. My husband, Kyle, and I have been married for 6 years. We have three energetic children Ryder (10), Stella (5), and Everly (2). Monday - Friday I’m hard at work for a dental support organization. My day job allows me to adult with some of the best! My role is the manager of a new sub-department in operations for project management. In all my free time my sister-in-law, Amber, and I run a store front boutique located within her hair salon. We started this side business to bring comfortable, trendy, and affordable clothing to our friends, family and salon clients. Here you will find me talking about all the things life and the chaos that goes with it! Xoxo -T

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